I think about you everyday. Constantly. Even though you were only here on Earth with me for a short time, I feel like you are always with me. Everything reminds me of you in some little way.
I find myself lost in thoughts about you. Most are happy, but some make me sad. No matter how hard I try, I find myself still dreaming about who you would have become.
And oh, the questions. All of the questions that I so desperately need answers to, but that I know will forever go unanswered. Like, do you know how much you are loved? Do you know how much your Daddy and I and all of your family miss you? Do you look down on us from above just to see what we are doing? Do you remember being in our arms? Did you feel any pain or were you at peace like you seemed to be? Are you happy?
I could go on for days with questions for you. I like to hope that you know how much we all love and miss you. I pray that you never felt a second of pain. I hope that you know I tried SO HARD to protect you from the moment I found out you were in my tummy. If there was anything at all I could have done, I would have done it in a heartbeat. If I could have taken your place, I would have done it! I pray that you can hear me and that you know I won’t EVER forget about you.
I wonder what color your beautiful eyes would have turned out to be. Or how your little voice, laugh and cry would have sounded. I wonder what your favorite cartoon would have been. Or your favorite toy and your favorite color. I wonder if you would have been like me, like your Daddy or a little bit of both. I just wonder about the beautiful little girl and then the amazing woman you would have become.
You may not be here with me, but you will always be in my heart. You will always be a part of me. I will always love you. I will forever remember holding you in my arms. I will keep your perfect little face in my mind and your memory in my heart! You will always be my little angel.
I pray you know that if our love could have saved you, You would be here with us now!
I try hard not to cry, just in case you are looking down on us. I try hard not to let you see me sad. But if you do, I want you to know that it is not your fault baby girl. You brought me nothing but happiness. I am so thankful that I was the one that got to be your mommy. I am only sad that I can’t be with you, but I’m okay.
You are our little guardian Angel. We love you more than you will ever know! You are forever in our hearts and we will never stop loving or missing you. I hope you look down and see us and it puts a smile on your beautiful face. We will be together again one day my love! But until then, I promise to keep your memory alive!
Mommy and Daddy love you so very much Aleena Kay.
In Loving Memory Of My Angel
Aleena Kay Patton